I hate this whole baptism by fire thing.
I'm desperate to find an apartment in Beijing, because my relatives are just overflowing with goodness towards me, and I don't want to rely on them. I want my own place, my own private space. I feel like I can't even hang out with my Swedish friends, because that would involve going out - gasp! - and coming home late and I am after all staying at their place. Indefinitely, by the looks of it. And all because they're nice to me, so I can't bitch about it either.
The 2-room apartment today sucked. The hallway was dark and disgusting and no security at all, and the apartment itself smelled of at least three different kinds of stinky. The worst thing is, it'll probably be rented out tomorrow. The housing market in Beijing makes Stockholm and NY look like backwater villages.
I want my own place goddammit!!!!!!! I'm going insane here!!!!!!